Yet I
am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
(Psalm
73:23-26)
I’m not sure what to write here. Before I
go any further I need to make it clear I
expect to make it through surgery tomorrow just fine and recover well. But
since there’s always the possibility that something might go wrong, I feel as
though I should write this.
I don’t know, maybe I’m worried because my
dad went into the hospital for surgery last year and never came out. But here’s
the thing…I don’t feel worried. I am confident that my God will take care of
me. I am confident that even if the “worst” should happen and I don’t make it
through, I will still be taken care of and so will my loved ones.
Notice I put “worst” in quotes…I believe
that even death is not the worst thing that could happen. I believe, like the
apostle Paul, that: “To live is Christ and to die is gain.” But I am confident
that I will continue living and be able to rejoice in being cancer free.
I don’t know if people think I’m naive for
feeling like I do, or that I am foolish for trusting God like I do, but I don’t
care. God is my savior and in him I will trust.
I made it through fine, as expected. Actually a bit better than expected. I feel better than I thought I would, the incision, though bigger than I thought it was going to be, doesn't hurt nearly as much as I thought it would. I can't drive as of yet, but I am hopeful that I'll be given the go-ahead to drive at my follow-up appointment on Wednesday. I probably won't post any pictures until the staples come out as it looks kind of Frankenstein-ey.